| i find myself willing to do anything for him,
but yet i feel like im just an annoyance to him.
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| i adore him, but i don't think i can take it anymore. i don't want to lose him. but i don't know if i want to stay with him anymore. i cant stand being ignored, or having him put guilt trips on me, or him making me cry, or anything. i don love him, but i don't love this.
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| dont take him away from me.
please dont take him away from me.
please dont take him away from me.
please dont take him away from me.
please dont take him away from me.
please dont take him away from me.
please dont take him away from me.
please dont take him away from me.
please dont take him away from me.
please dont take him away from me.
please dont take him away from me.
please dont take him away from me.
please dont take him away from me.
im begging.
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| you are, trust me.
i adore him.
he's the only person who has ever made me feel beautiful
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| im scared. because i hate you almost as much as i hate myself right now. everything is going well, i have someone who tells me how much he loves me daily. but, he says things that rip my heart into pieces. things that make me feels worse than i ever have before. i love him so much, but i dont even think he notices what he does to me.
he is my love, but i feel like i depend on him too much. almost like i would fall completely apart without him. and it scares me to death because its only been four months. four months. and all i can think about is how i remind myself so much of emily, and that im going to end up committing myself if we ever have serious problems. i dont want that. i do want him. but i dont want that.
all i want is to be mentally stable. i want to be independent. i dont want to need anyone. i want to be a good girlfriend. not a clingy, controlling psychopath.
i love you, please dont forget how much you mean to me.
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